Well as I mentioned in my last post I did not get quite the sleep was hoping for last night. I have had this odd, I don't want to say ability btu that is what it seems to be, to be able to stay up very late and get very little sleep and contiue on normaly the next day. It almost seems as though I have had partial insomnia. For the past 7 months now I have been getting approximatly 3 hours of sleep on the weekdays and on the weekends, including Friday night, I do not sleep at all. Now for the past week or so I have been getting many more times that amount of sleep because I have been in this constantstate of needing sleep, I wonder why <_<, and now I have been feeling sick and in even more need of sleep lately. I got sick last night a couple times and that made me feel as though I had no energy but I was still unable to sleep then.
I tried sleeping today for about 4-5 hours I managed to get some in but not much. I would sleep for half an hour straight then I would wake up and it would feel like 3 or 4 hours had passed by but it truly hadn't. To make all this seem even better my eating habits have been less then imprssing either. I love to eat and all but I have no erge or feeling to eat for the most part; so I force myself to eat when I know I should eat, so I can keep my strength up, so I can keep on going through out the day. All this is making me feel pretty shitty, as the title says obviously, but I can nto even concentrate enough to read somethings in class at times. I could not even read a simple paragraph in Global Geographie or Global History the other day. I am thinking about going ot the doctors if this continues on.
I honestly have no erge to go to school anymore, to learn, since my last report card has pretty much shot down all my ambition to learn. I infact sat infront of the computer for an hour doing nothing but just looking at my desktop and contemplaiting staying home and doing the home school thing, since I would just do all the work then sit here and do nothing for the rest of the day. I know that, that is too sad of a thing to do and I know I would miss my friends way too much to do that. On top of all this shit that is going on I some what seem to be in a depressed state. My friends at school and my girl friend are what keep me from being this way though. I just ignore all that makes me depressed when I am around them or think of the good times I have had with them.
I honestly think I am going, nuts yet again hurra <_<. This post has just showed me how bitchy and some what emo I am at the moment so I am going to end it here for my own sanity. I realy wish we would have had school today. You know what to do like I say at the end of every other post I have done. If you don't look at the very bottom of one and you will know for future reference.
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You know what's weird, both you and Sebastian had insomnia at one point...
You'll be able to sleep, it's probably just because you have been going to bed late and getting up early. Your sleep pattern is probably all outta wack.
Don't feel bad about school. And, just because you got a low mark doesn't mean you should give up altogether, it should actually make you want to try harder. Take it from me, seriously don't just give up on school, it's not as good as you think.
Make a new post, so then I can comment =)
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