Do You Ever Feel Lost?

Today and last night I felt rather lost. I am not sure why but I just did and sort of do now. Today I was not up to par you could say. When I got to school I sort of had a head ache, well the just escalated to a full grown migrane by the end of first period; where I had also started not feeling to well in my stomach. This all seemed to get worse, I had started taking head ache meds by second period, I just ignored it for the most part not leting on that I wasn't feeling well; but I strated to fall asleep and such, I only had an hour of sleep the night before, so it started to show some what by about lunch time.

Anyhoo I titled this article Do you ever feel lost for this one reason, and that reason is the fact that I am feeling honest to god lost at just about everything I do and think about. In physics and math clases I find I am second guessing what I am doing and the methods I am using. And I am also just lost in the fact that I do not seem to fit in with my friends anymore. I have been hanging out witht the same people since..well I have ever really been hanging with a group of people, and now I just don't seem to fit in with either one. Today I was with Laura and Athena but both of them seemed to be out of it, it showed believe you and me, then I would go and hang with my other friends but I just seemed out of place there for some reason? I am not sure why but I just know that I felt out of place and I think they thoughts as much as well. I feel as though I am at a loss for where to go and what to do for the first time in my life.

I feel like I am seperating from all life around me, it feels so different, not comforting at that. I am just not the same at the moment, I am never sick feeling, I am never lost I am always the one who helps people figure out where and what they need to do because they see me and my life all going all good and in order. I even question one of my LIFE LONG DREAMS!!, that is to become a translator/ interpreur, therfore I know something is not right. I have wanted to do that since like grade 6, and no doubt about it!! I feel so distant from my friends, like I am grasping for ideas in a dark room or random saying like that. I know I feel lost and I know I shouldn't, but the more I think about it the more lost in everyway I become. I am also feeling worse then I was before since I started writing this. I don't know of anyone who has had this kind of life changing thoughts or feelings, right now but I know of others who have had them in general. I need to find someone who has gone through this and turned out fine, like people do when I help them. When ever I help poeple they always seem to have everything all set for them then, they know what they want to do and where to go, since I helped them realize these said things. I need some one to set me straight.

I am not sureif that is possible since I have never had some one tell me where to go in my life. I will give anything atleast one chance though. I will have to find some one who knows me well enough to point me in the right direction. For those who know me well, I am never like this. It is like what I am against, but for some odd reason I can not help but be this way. I am not proud of it but I can not help my self.

I feel like shit right now so I am not even going to bother putting more deppressing things, and just stop all that kinda shit all together right now, I am goign to go to bed, maybe.

Anyhoo leave your thoughts for those of you who may read this and care somewhat. Oh and keep on blogging.